Feeling sorry, bad and sad 21April2015 “

Feeling sorry, bad and sad  21April2015

“Are you a doctor?”  Dr. A  

"Nop! I am just an ordinary housewife."

Nobody with me was stupid enough not to notice the tone of her displeasure being called again on the 16^th April.  Actually, she went further to remind us that she did not want to be called again. 

Would there be another time seeing the condition of D?  Why did she fuss like that?   I just can’t understand.

We were not there to question her though I was at first in doubt about her explanation about a thing when my Amu told me that D seemed to react a bit when she called him. 

But Dr A said it was the natural response /instinct of a person.

I wonder if this is the manner of the doctor to greet the patient’s family to call the doctor again without any consultation fee.   On the 14April, the ICU called D’s wife/S to come on 15April to be told of the condition of my brother-in-law/D. 

I did not go that day.  But I google searched about brain scanning that afternoon.  Hence I requested for the brain scanning on S’s behalf which they were supposed to do on the day when D had the cardiac arrest on the 4^thApril. 

It was the same day, the doctor suggested to punch a hole somewhere right below the chin.  Actually, D had the pipe connected to a lung via the nose.  That afternoon my husband went to see him and he was still wide awake and even smiled a bit. 

But, nobody knows except the medical staff involved in the operation knew what mishap occurred.  That afternoon at about 5pm, S informed my husband about the cardiac arrest and D was only revived 15 minutes later. 

Since 4^th April, he was in the coma state until he 17^thApril, he had another cardiac arrest and passed away that very night.   When everybody accepted his death as it is but I made a lot of wild guesses that he was killed unintentionally by unskillful hand punching of the hole.   I felt really sorry, bad and sad. 

I went with my husband the second time on 16^thApril since I visited him on the 7^thApril .   When I saw D, you do not have to be a doctor to know what is what.

Before I went to the hospital, of course, I jotted down a few brain scanning devices which I wanted to know if they had to examine the brain.  They had Electro-encephalography but they did not use the device on D.  When I asked Why, she said Dr. So and So did not indicate. Then she told me the doctors were clever enough knowing what to prescribe. 

Then I asked what device they would do on D.   It was CAT/CT scan .  In the conversation, she disclosed that this device often broke down due to overwork.  When I asked why did not she request the hospital to get the new one.

Instead, she argued that we people should approach some rich kind men for donation saying that Sibu was a rich place.   Not knowing that it was an absolutely wrong mentality of the head of the ICU to expect the rich kind people to donate the devices after paying hefty taxes, she told us her piece of mind.

It was understood why they did not have Magneto-encephalography and Near Infrared Spectroscopy to examine the blood oxygenation.  Instead of requesting the public funds for purchasing the required devices, they were waiting for the wealthy kind people to come out with the things. Imagine!

At one stage in the conversation, she even asked if we wanted to transfer D to the private hospital.  Alamak!  I wondered where she had left her work ethic to say like that.  I had no choice but rebutted, “ In such a condition, is it possible for us to do anything?”. 

To end the conversation, I only asked when they would give D the CT-scanning, that’s it. 

We must admit that going to the hospital for the case which required an immediate attention was the worst/gravest mistake D and S made being so ignorant. 

No one who came to know about the consequences has not felt with regret that the case could have had different outcome if it had been treated in the private medical centre.  They have been successful cases of the people who suffered back pain because of the pinched nerve. And due to immediate attention and operation, these people have fully recovered and are still "kicking and living".

人体的认知12April2015

人体的认知12April2015

     人体在我眼里是这人世间最最神奇的一部机器。这部机器也是人世间最最复杂的一部。如果这部机器不是自己有很神奇的修复的能力。这世间有医药团体有多 大的本事修复这部机器？ 最近，就是因为小叔和小婶对病痛的源头没有自己先掌握好。也因为，小叔太焦急要医治好自己的病痛。所以一直换医生治疗。 这从头就因为对自己个别的病痛的源头不了解因此一直[投医不当 ]而错诊/误诊。

     这一切的开始是从跑步时，一时[散腰拉扯]后，接着就是一直误诊。用药物来压制自己的病痛。十多天的误诊从3月13号起，经历无法言喻和言语的疼痛。结果，整个人瘫痪，3月24日，就因心脏承担不起负荷，呼吸困难，必需插管进紧急房。整个人是从不清醒到清醒，后来，又不清醒。现在，我们一直祈祷奇迹的出现：他可以清醒。

     据我所知，他是因脊椎骨C3和C4 （cervical 部有8对）之间有神经线被压倒.  他是一直有投诉脊椎骨的T7 和T8(T部有12)那部位疼痛。我是认为因为C3和C4的神经线被压，所以拉扯到大概T7和T8的部位。虽然，我对脊椎骨的结构认识也是很不足，不过，我认为它们是连贯的，所以，有这么的结果。

     上星期四，我右手腕上，有点肿胀。 当我的手弯上/弯下时，有点痛我知道这不是局部的问题。我知道我医学知识不够全面。但是，小叔的苦难给了我无限的启示。最近，也有去google search看看有关脊椎骨的结构的资料和疾病。对于脊椎骨的认知，我还是不够详细的。不过，至少，我心中有个谱和图案。原来，正如有位专家比喻，人体的神经线就好像电线。

     嗯。。 嗯，这一认知，让我对右手腕上的肿胀，就有了联想。我猜我脊椎骨的C1和C2，应该不是很正，因为我的肩骨/collar bone 有断过，住院时，我受伤左边的手，当时，护士有用的左手抽血等等。那时，我也是很无知的，因此没有提示她。 所以，断的地方，有个半寸的差距。这一次经历让我对自己更负责任。 这半寸的差距，对我整体平衡有一定的影响。所以，姿势不对时会出状况像微微的酸痛。这是我平躺或让背有机会休息，就不碍事了。

我右手腕上的肿胀，我追溯回，我当然大胆的假设多方面是星期三，休息不足，水也没喝够，人好像燥热了。看看右手血管都很浮胀的。 这我不怕。因为，我知道自己身体的大概大概问题。

星期天下午，又来了，这一次，是左手腕下，红了2，3和4手指合起来的大小面积一片。这一次，我猜是身体那部位的血管受压了。因为，那天早上，我花了2-3小时在围2尺2尺3尺用PVC水管接的笼子。我想是太累了，所以，我当天下午是一个姿势赖在沙发椅睡睡醒醒待太久了。大概是压到那根血管了。这些我都有让我先生看。这样至少有人见证。不然，无凭无据，人家看我大概是发[精神病]了。胡说了。今天，几乎是90%好了因为不像昨天那么红了。是的，还有点红，但是要很注意看才看得清楚呢。

神奇的科技 1932015

神奇的科技  19、3、2015

我终于鼓起勇气在3月12日接受白内障割除手术。 手术100%成功。 今天是第7天，我有回去复诊。那位眼科医生跟我说我不必怕水进入眼睛了。 这种手术让我左眼【重拾光明】。是的，我的左眼是受白内障的隔遮瞎了两三年。 这两三年，我都是靠单眼看人事物。

用单眼做事，真的，有很多不便。 尤其是【穿针引线】是非常吃力的。 我总是要先生帮帮忙。 我这个人有那种很固执的本性，自己总是会在那里试着，试着和试着。真的不行了，只好求救。 阅读至少一或两份报纸是我每天的功课，除此以外，我还有做英文有关的功课，这是很考眼力的。 靠单边眼睛阅读真的很吃力。 我一星期，还要上市场两次，这是个人要驾车去呢。未来，我很可能还要出去授课。 只靠单眼是不方便的。

本来，我想2014,7/8月动手术，后来，也是因为种种因素，取消了。 有一阵子甚至想放弃。 但是，又经过几个月的思虑，我还是决定动手术。  未动手术之前，我当然有做一些功课，老早我有参考过那些动手术过的朋友问个清楚。 我当然也有google search。 白内障只是个小手术，不用担心。 不管大家怎么鼓励我。我还是一样害怕的。 今年3月，我不管了。 我把【怕】这恐惧狠狠的甩一旁了。

3月10日，我先去办点手续。我是用医药卡去私人医药中心动手术。 我给自己一天的时间做各种准备，3月12日下午先生陪我去，两点多，我就进手术房去动手术了。 一切相当顺利。只是，我这个人有超级紧张的个性，所以有一点点的问题。 我不能很确定是。。。有点浮起，所以那一点点的问题。是的天然的镜片污浊，所以必须拿走，代替的是人工的镜片。这过程是如何拿走旧的换个新的，我不是很清楚。

这手术过程后，视力非常清楚。这对我来讲就是神奇。我是非常的感恩现代医药科技已经达到【登峰造极】的地步。 因白内障的隔遮而瞎了，这些手术和科技发明和认知做出了这种【转瞎为明】的转动。 当我发现我的左眼视力很光亮时，我真的感到恩典。我们有这些【认知技术高明的医生，有如此的仪器，还有良好护理人员的搭配】成事。

想当年，我家阿嫲，60多岁时，也面对同样的问题，可是那时，40多年前，医学知识不足，科技才起步，医生对这些技术知识有限的，所以，我家阿嫲去动一些【白内障】手术，可是效果并不显著，我还记得，我家阿嫲如何把那位外科医生黄顺开（好像是黄顺舸的堂哥呢）狠狠的咒骂好多次。 80年代，我阿爸也面对2个眼睛白内障的问题。 那时，他面对经济风暴，家里那时经济很差，我阿爸更是时时无奈的发脾气。 后来，我二哥安排他去动手术，手术也是100%成功。 他现在两个眼睛还是好好的。

3月17日，我二哥和小妹安排下，我82岁的阿妈也去我阿爸动手术的医生那里动手术，也是一样的眼睛可以看得非常清楚。 她想再过一阵子，再去动另一边的白内障手术。 经过这些手术，眼睛100%回春，这真的太神奇了。

嗯。。嗯，手术后，我真的一点家事都没做了，先生全部包办了。退休后，他是接任清洁家里干净的大小事和养鸡鸭的事。 这一星期下来，他也要洗碗，洗衣服，凉衣服，。。。煮吃。。。等等的事。  我真的感受到恩典。 这种吃饱没有什么运动的生活真的不是件好事，因为我的体重很快又飙升到危险水平。 我又得努力减肥了。